Last Thursday, August 25th, I decided enough was enough. I have had it with this whining and complaining and horribly uncomfortable feeling of being FAT!!!
I joined Weight Watchers Online. I weighed in at a whopping 186.4. That’s right, it’s not a typo. I, Carol Ann Kaplan, am considered obese. I’m not sure if it said MORBIDLY, but it did say OBESE. How can this be???
I realize that I’m only 5′ 3″ (okay, okay, 5′ 2 1/4″). I’ve promised myself these things:
1. I will NOT weigh myself every day. I will ONLY weigh myself once a week.
2. I will not become obsessed with counting points. I have seen what this has done to people in the past. It’s scary!!! I will not torture others with my PTS!
3. I will slowly and healthily lose 56 lbs. I am giving myself ONE YEAR!
4. When I hit 50 years of age (and it’s coming soon), I will be at my goal weight and able to maintain a healthy lifestyle.
So, there you have it. I’m afraid to look back on this blog to see if I’ve said these words before. It doesn’t matter, does it? Today is a new day and it is true, it really isn’t how many times you fall; it’s the getting up that is something to be proud of.
I will NOT let this be who I am anymore. I will gain control over what I consume.
I am fortunate to be surrounded by many supportive people. The only people who upset me about being overweight are my immediate family. One because she thinks fat means lazy and she lives in fear that I will wind up unhealthy like my dad.
The other because he told me to “lose weight you fat disgusting pig”. True. Painful, huh? What an ass he is. In any case. I recently saw him and he was looking quite OLD.
I have to admit, for my age, I’m looking pretty darn good. I’m a firm believer that the ugly INSIDE eventually makes its way OUTSIDE. So, I choose to be beautiful inside.
I will keep you posted on my weightloss progress. So, far, Weight Watchers has been the easiest plan to follow. You just punch in what you eat on your computer, iPad or iPhone and it helps keep you on track.
I am learning to think about what I am about to put into my mouth. This has been quite interesting. I didn’t realize the snacks I was adding into my day!! One poptart here, a brownie edge there, a few slices of pizza, chips with my sandwich….
With WW you are allowed to eat as many fresh fruits and veggies as you want. This is AMAZING!!! I’ve found that food tends to taste so much nicer without all the sauces and dips.
My honey, David, is also coming on this journey with me. How fortunate am I to have a man who supports all of my ventures. He even cooks for me!!! We went grocery shopping and he thought about MY needs (as I do not eat land animals) and purchased fish and lots of my favorite fruits and veggies.
David Reneau…..I love you!!!! I can’t imagine my life without you in it!!! Thank you for loving me the way you do…not just with words, but through your actions every day.
Honestly, I could write all day if allowed. I have so much I want to share with you. I just don’t know how interested anyone could really be in me. But, thank you for reading!!
An update on Mike Venable. He is home and growing stronger every day. Please continue to pray. He has a long road ahead of him. But, he has allot of company with him to help make it more bearable.
Have a great Monday!!!